today was a weight conscious day. meaning, i thought about my weight off and on..from "i look great in these jeans" to "if i keep up with these bad eating habits, the next thirty pounds will materialize very quickly" to "don't beat yourself up, at least you've quit smoking". according to my height and frame size, i should weigh 144 at the most. i weigh in at 156, so that is only ten pounds extra to lose. i am feeling rather optimistic that i can lose it, but less than optimistic at keeping it off. exorcism is not easy.