The best way to drive off useless thoughts, our desires and fears, is not to combat them openly and still less to allow oneself to be troubled and disquieted by them, but just to let them drop, like a stone into the sea.
Through the habit of letting drop our useless thoughts one may pass whole days without thinking at all, as if one has become stupid.
-jean-pierre de caussade S.J.
days without thinking at all. wow. there was a time when i would have laughed at such a suggestion..i mean, who wouldn't love to think about things? right now, there is a small attatchment to the former opinion, but much more of a curiosity of exactly what it might be like to let idle thoughts drop like a stone into the sea.
today, i talked and cried a bit with my family about my doubts, my feelings of just not doing enough to get close to God in my life and in my spiritual movement..i feel stagnant, i feel distracted by thoughts on this and that, by judgements against different beliefs in things associated with the Church, etc. it feels like a whirlwind.
now, in secular psychology, when people become focused on little things, or big things as they might make them to be, outside of themselves, things which are not the base of the discomfort, it is because they would rather not go through the pain of whatever is really bothering them. it is a distraction due to fear.
what am i really afraid of?