I have heard your desperate cry for help, and I have great understanding for you. Your thoughts frighten you so much that they gain power over you. You must turn from this fear. Through it you yourself suggest these thoughts into your heart, and then even more desperate and terrible fears, anxieties, and needs enter you.
Don't let your fears shake you. If you can drop them and trust in God, many things will become different. Never doubt in God's help and intervention. I assure you that he loves you and that he is much closer to you than you know. - j. heinrich arnold